may i hv the right for today to say tis?
y muz i be the experiment?
y muz i taste all types of taste?
y muz i be the one to taste all the sweet?
y muz i be the one to experience all the taste?
y muz i be the one to do everything?
y muz i be the one to feel everything?
y muz them b the one to teach me hw to look aft her?

WHY?

unable to swallow, y muz i force to swallow?
unable to take it, y muz i force to take it?
unable to think, y muz i force to think?
unable to see, y muz i force to see?

1 aft 1, nv end. NV!!
if onli im born with golden spoon, will i b tt happy?

up n dwn de life isnt wat i wan forever. cant i control myself n balance myself?
y muz i being control by up above?
if i will to be a swindler, hw abt u?
if i will to be a traitor, hw abt u?
if i will to be a black heart devil, hw abt u?
if i will to be a idiot, hw abt u?

一个人如果再也不能忍受所有的痛, 那一个人不知道会不会做出什么东西来伤害自己。。。
一个人哭过就好了,因为记忆有限所以他会淘汰坏的。。。

if i dun tear out, i feel vry pressure.
the only way to release the pressure is to tear out n erase everything in mind.

:D